I’m feeling a bit frustrated at the world today
I’m not sure why though. Just finished ready a book by Elizabeth Moon called The Speed of the Dark. And I must say it has moved me. I’m not sure how though. It’s a wonderful story told from a unique point of view that goes deeply into one question, “If I have the opportunity to change the way I think, will I be me after I go through with it?” This question hits me at a very deep level. I’ve had to go through less drastic, yet similar events throughout my life. Am I the me that I was when I was younger? Is the now-me worse or better off then the old-me? Would I change the experiences, the lessons, the trials and tribulations that have brought me to the now-me? What can I do want to change in future-me, and can I even visualize it? Or is it impossible to determine what a future-me would want, because in determining this, would I actually change the future-me? These are the questions that are running through my head today.
I think I’m going to complement this post with a video…
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I think this helps to illustrate my thinking today
Not sure if this is the place for it, but it is a comments section…and you did ask questions… so I’ll comment! :)
I’ve never read the book that inspired your thinking, so I can’t say for certain if these answers will help. But as simply a reader of the questions, these answers should suffice.
All of us, as human beings, have had at least one tragic event in our life that has forged us into who we are today. For some, it was the death of mother or father, for others it may have been something akin to being told by a teacher that if you don’t pass this class you’ll never be more than a gas station worker. Each of them tragic in their own way, but you get the idea.
“Am I the me that I was when I was younger?” When you were younger you likely had dreams, a vision of what you would become when you get older. Things you would have acheived, things you would own, places you’d go. While you may not think you have those dreams anymore, you do. They lie dormant in your subconcious mind waiting to be re-activated and move you towards those dreams.
Without trying to provide input on some of the other questions, I’ll skip ahead as hopefully you’ll see how they are interlocked.
“What can I do want to change in future-me, and can I even visualize it? Or is it impossible to determine what a future-me would want, because in determining this, would I actually change the future-me?” An excellent question, one that took me a while to understand, and am continuing to learn. You can always visualize where you want to be; be it dreaming or sitting down and writing what you want to achieve. You alone hold the power to change your life. Life can throw obstacles at you, certainly, but you decide how you handle those obstacles. Do you give up and say to yourself, this is my luck? Or do you meet it head on and find the solution? When faced with a problem, do you stare at the problem? Or do you seek the solution? Wherever you look is where you go, so if you look at the problem… that’s what you’re going to end up with. But if you focus on the solutions… you’ll end up with–a solution.
So many quotes and stories that I’ve read over the past year and half come to mind answering these same questions you’ve asked. To avoid incoherent thoughts on a webpage, I’ll leave it with this:
“From the testimonies you’ve heard of others that have succeeded and from your own personal experiences, you have enough information to conclude that it’s possible to design and live an extraordinary life!”.
Hope this helps answer some of the questions as you go about your day!
Comment by Uly | August 29, 2006
I hear ya man………. its kind of weird that you bring this up, cause this is how i have been feeling for a while now! maybe not to as stong as a degree as u, but still feeling this way…………
Comment by John | September 2, 2006