Grym’s Rant

Losing the War, Winning a Police State: Managing the American Public?

The New York Times disclosure of an official National Intelligence Estimate, which states that the Iraq invasion has worsened the global terrorist threat, carries an unspoken subtext that the Bush administration is either woefully ignorant of how to combat terrorism or finds the terrorist threat a useful tool for managing the American public.

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I don’t mean to be alarmist here, but this is a very scary concept. At first glance I’m surprised that I just don’t immediatly consider it a complete and utter conspiracy wackjob. I can actually see this as not completely outside the realm of possibility.  What do you think?

September 29th, 2006 Posted by Grymwulf | Politics | no comments

Self Discovery?

In my last post I wrote about Asperger’s Syndrome, and the possibility that I can finally identify why I am so abnormal. But it’s more than that, it is about being able to finally find a group of people similar to me. Instead of taking what everyone has told me with several grains of salt and trying to understand how it could possibly be applicable. Now I can take what others who are similar to me, people who think like me, and they have worked out some of the problems that I’ve seen.

I don’t really know how to feel about this. I’ve felt so alone throught most of my life, unable to connect with people. Unable to understand and read people’s body language. I felt almost like I was on the wrong planet, an alien in amongst the rest of the people around me. How I focused on only those things that where important to me, and could never force myself to behave in the way everyone thought I should behave. It’s not an excuse, but more of an understanding of myself that I can use to build upon. I’ve always felt that if I can’t know with certainty what ’symbol’ to use to describe myself, to form the basis of my self image, that I wouldn’t be able to form a stable me.

I’m going to take the time a bit later to go further into depth about how I’ve learned to adapt and attempt to be able to socialize.

September 28th, 2006 Posted by Grymwulf | Rant | no comments

Thoughts on my mental illnesses

I’ve been doing a bit of research lately on some of the mental peculiarities that I normally experience.  I’ve come accross a relatively new (in the last 10 yrs new) syndrome that has been identified.  Asperger’s Syndrome is a form of autism that manifests in completely different ways from what we all consider to be autism.  It is differentiated from other pervasive development disorders in that a person with AS also has normal to above normal intelligence, and standard language development compared with classical autism.

AS correlates with Asperger’s Disorder defined in section 299.80 of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV) by six main criteria. These criteria define AS as a condition in which there is:

1. Qualitative impairment in social interaction;
2. The presence of restricted, repetitive and stereotyped behaviors and interests;
3. Significant impairment in important areas of functioning;
4. No significant delay in language;
5. No significant delay in cognitive development, self-help skills, or adaptive behaviors (other than social interaction); and,
6. The symptoms must not be better accounted for by another specific pervasive developmental disorder or schizophrenia.

Now those who suffer from AS can be characterized by:

1. Limited interests or preoccupation with a subject to the exclusion of other activities;
2. Repetitive behaviors or rituals;
3. Peculiarities in speech and language;
4. Socially and emotionally inappropriate behavior and interpersonal interaction;
5. Problems with nonverbal communication; and
6. Clumsy and uncoordinated motor movements.

Since I can personally attest that I suffer from #s 1, 2, 3, 4, and 5; I am beginning to believe that this may be my overall issue vs the seperate diagnoses that I am currently under.  I’ve been diagnosed with various?dissorders such?as obsessive/compulsive dissorder, attention deficit/hyperactivity dissorder, general anxiety dissorder, clinical depression, and bipolar dissorder.  All of which are listed as comorbidities of AS, or in other words, other disseases that may present or be diagnosed in addition to the primary disorder.

Now, I might ask, what does this mean to me?  I’m not sure, I don’t really know for sure that this might explain all of the things that have puzzled me about how different I’ve felt.  Of how many difficulties I’ve gone through in life.  But I do have another set of questions for my primary doctor when I next visit, and this might lead to something better than not knowing.  I need to find out what this means to me, and I guess that is all I can do at this point.

September 27th, 2006 Posted by Grymwulf | Rant | no comments

Someone admits that elections have been tampered with?

Just saw this entry in a blog over at the Booman Tribune. I have not read the original article, which is supposed to be published in the Rolling Stone due out 9/22/2006.

“…an admission by a Diebold consultant that machine software was altered in 5,000 machines in DeKalb and Fulton counties on the day of the election.

If anyone remembers the 2002 election in Georgia, that is the one where Max Cleland’s five to six point lead was erased overnight to a seven point loss, leading to a miraculous win by Saxby Chambliss…”

I haven’t head a chance to read the Rolling Stone article, so I’m not 100% clear on the exact wording, but this looks VERY interesting.

September 22nd, 2006 Posted by Grymwulf | Politics | no comments

A poem

Something that occured to me ….

a silent picture;
beauty in motion, dancing
alone in the dark

September 18th, 2006 Posted by Grymwulf | Rant | no comments

A Post 9/11 World

I haven’t really put together any specific thoughts on this whole ‘remembering’ of Sept. 11th 2001.  It’s five years in the past, and while we need to remember what lead to those events, and what happened, we also need to realize that the politics that surround this whole event have twisted it into a shape that is nearly unrecognizable.  I guess I’m disappointed, and increasingly disheartened by the self serving, short sighted, power hungry, and anti-freedom vibes that are coming from our government. Read More

September 12th, 2006 Posted by Grymwulf | Politics | no comments