Easter Cookout
I actually managed to drag myself out to the Easter cookout over at John’s house, with the whole group from World of Warcraft. It was slightly stressful in that I know most of these people only as their character names in WoW, not by their real names/faces. I had a lot of difficulty in trying to remember their names when I was introduced to them. I guess I just feel/felt overwhelmed a bit. It was nice to see them all though, but I didn’t know what to say to make conversation. It was that whole disconnection I have. I only relate to most of them through the game where I basically am a character, not as myself, in that I portray a persona. What do I say when it’s me? So I just sat there people watching, trying to understand the people around me. It didn’t help that I was tired, my sleep schedule was messed up from having to wake up at 11am to go to the Dr. with the wife. I did manage to catch a bit of sleep, but not enough to make a big difference. I did like seeing little Matt & being able to meet Xavier for the first time (John & Marianne’s kids). And being able to see Brian & Jamie before they move to California was nice.
I guess I just need to accept that I have difficulty communicating and leave it at that. It’s depressing though, in that this always leads me to wonder what is defective with me that causes it to be this way.
